lilah is now a year old! and my goal is to wean her by the end of august. 14 months is a good long time for nursing. i am starting now, so that i can ease her off the breast very slowly. no cold turkey for this kid. she loves nursing so much i know this one will be a challenge.
so at her 12 month appointment the other day, the doc confirmed what i’d been reading: start by replacing one daytime feeding with a bottle of whole milk. gradually, feedings will be replaced by milk and probably the ‘most important’ feedings will be the last to go. for us, that is the first feeding in the morning and the last one at night.
so anyway, yesterday i chose an arbitrary afternoon time when lilah was hungry, and offered her a bottle of milk. she has always taken bottles with no problem, so i knew that would be easy. as soon as she saw me take the bottle out of the cabinet she was excited and wanted it. but, she had never had cows milk before. when i first tried dairy products (cheese, yogurt, etc), she took awhile to become acclimated to it. the first few times she had thrown up and rejected it entirely. but now she’s enjoying cheese a lot, its one of her favorite snacks. so i hoped dairy in general was no longer an issue.
i offered her 2 oz of milk, and she started off guzzling it down happily. but an ounce and a half in, she pushed it away angrily and kept turning to the breast, demanding to nurse. i felt bad and did not stick to my guns; instead i offered the breast for her to finish her feeding.
but that did not make her any happier. in fact, this began an hour of lilah being more inconsolably miserable than she has ever been before! usually, even at her angriest, if she is picked up and walked around, lilah becomes satiated. usually she just wants to be carried. well that wasn’t cutting it this time. i tried everything but she was miserable, and i could tell she really wasn’t feeling well. she kept having these weird hiccups and breathing funny, between screams. another clue was the fact that she threw up 3 times.
poor thing, i felt awful! i had given her something that made her really sick!
finally she calmed down, after a really really REALLY long time of being angry and hurting. it was then time for her dinner so i sat her in her high chair and offered an array of foods she typically loves. i couldn’t get her to eat a thing. she clearly still felt yucky and food did not appeal to her. when she doesn’t eat well at dinner, she doesn’t sleep through the night. so i knew we had a long night ahead of us.
needless to say, her first milk experience was NOT a good one. what an ordeal! it was discouraging as far as weaning. i had hoped to bypass formula entirely and go straight to milk. i have a total aversion to formula for some reason, and perhaps i should rethink that because its looking like i may need to seek its help if i plan to wean this child in the near future. i’m going to try the whole milk again – in a much smaller amount (1/4 an oz, maybe? lol) but i’m too afraid to do it today. maybe next week. :/